Pirates Booty

Fuckin finally eh???  Sorry, I was on, um, hiatus.

OK I wasn't on hiatus OK. I was reading and feeling guilty because I did a good job of cutting out purging and then I tiptoed back into it and FUCK. I mean, to be honest, I don't hate it. I'm a little over talking about it at the moment. But i started back with the purging and going to the gym and I'm back down to 126 (which is good) then this whole week I didn't go. for 5 days in a row. UGH, but I told husband we have to go both days this weekend.

The last few days I've been obsessing about I got clip in hair extensions. They are so much fun. I got one set at Sallys for $100 and one set on ebay for $30. The sally's ones are better but the ebay ones are TOTALLY worth more than what I paid. they're not AS good, but they're real hair and everything nice. I have in both sets this eve. I've just been doing a lot of trying out how and where to place them and everything. 

So that's me at the mall tonight. There's hella hair in the back flowing down so thick too. I love it. And ok, I'm not trying to be conceited right now but I swear I think I look better than I did in high school. Not as young duh, but cuter and all that. I was skinny in high school but I was 100% dork. I guess everyone thinks that but I'm totally serious and sometimes I feel that way still. But these days I have about 99% more confidence. Sometimes I think I really have BDD but the OTHER way--like I think I look better than I really do but then I see a mirror and get embarrassed cuz I'm a claude . but then sometimes I get lucky and a picture turns out ok.....

I went to Fredericks in the mall... I got this strappy little number for $12 bux!! and the panty is crotchless. I've never really tried those, I hope it works out.  haha... That's my messy bedroom in the background I had to try to shade it out--SHAME, but could I take 2 seconds to straighten it out? guess not.

 

I'm THIRTY SIX years old. I'm not saying I look 18, but when I WAS 18, I didn't look this good and I definitely didn't think I'd look presentable in this type of outfit when I got to 36. When I was 17, 18 years old, I would look at my flat tummy in the mirror in wonderment. At my smooth perky boobs. smooth everything. I thought I'll NEVER be fat or stretched out, or have saggy boobs. I still don't have saggy boobs. But I went YEARS without looking in the mirror. and Now, I have bits and wobbles and flaps and STRETCH MARKS all over. but you know what, NO ONE sees all that. Not even my husband. Cuz we light candles and he doesn't notice bits n jiggles.

Why is this centered all the sudden??

AH HA! I figured it out.....  Ok so listen. If any of you is my friend on facebook, don't say anything on there about this blog ever. I know that's paranoid, but I have to just say it. kay. 

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