Purging: I'm STILL purge free WOAH!!! let me look at the calendar, that's 25 days! I can't believe it. I think I'm done. I have had a couple of stress out episodes where I REALLY wanted to but I thought of my hair and skin and I just don't want to go back. It doesn't make me skinny. I HAVE gained a few pounds and I'm pissed about that but in order to loose weight by purging, I have to do it all the time and get malnourished and I still run into a wall with loosing, it's just not worth it. I have NOT been restricting. I've taken some good time to get nice and hydrated and healthy, I am feeling itchy to start to really count calories again and try to lessen my intake just a little bit. I've been eating 1500 - 2000 cals per day--TOTALLY vegan. Usually for breakfast I'll have a rice/quinoa bowl with kale, currants, zucchini, mushroom, lite coconut milk, curry paste, chia seeds. It packs a punch and I COULD go till dinner off of that one meal--this is the type of restricting I'm planning to do. Nothing drastic. Just not so much snacking.
Ladyparts: I went in last week for a consultation and exam to plan for surgery. I held a mirror to look while she showed me what she could do. It got me excited and glad and I said I'd like to go ahead and schedule it. So she sent a request to the hospital and someone is supposed to call me to get that scheduled. If all goes right, it will happen in December. WOWWOWWOW
I'm soooooo happy for you!!! Keep it up. I'm glad that the purging wasn't working for you because that's just one more deterrent from doing it again. Your body thanks you for it!
ReplyDeleteVery proud of ya, lady! Keep it up! And don't get sucked into restricting again. Just exercise a little bit every day & focus on being fit & healthy instead of thin. You look great! Just think of where you were 2 or 3yrs ago & applaud yourself for the positive things achieved! xoxo
ReplyDeleteThat is awesome! I'm so stoaked you managed to get through the stressful times without resorting back to it.
ReplyDeleteSome of that weight will be caused by your body doing repairs. It needs to hold a bit of extra water to do so, so it WILL go again when it's done with it's fixing house.
You do NOT need to restrict. You're eating the perfect amount of calories now, anything less will fuck your body's ability to do any more good work on making you stronger and restriction does lead back to bingeing :/ Work on your overall badassery, ok?
Omg so excited for you! It will be so good to put an end to the pain and stress.
Sending you many hugs and all my love <3