I NEVER eat like that!

I really never do, I've been SO GOOD and not purging, like maybe only once in 2 weeks! But once I started, my mouth was on like auto pilot. It's SO much better to just NOT EAT any treats at all. But then, to be honest, throwing up last night wasn't as bad as I feared, and today I'm 158.5. I kept teetering after I reached 159. Back up to 160,161. Yesterday afternoon I was 161!!!! So, I'm HAPPY today to be 158.5 really happy. I gotta go to the gym.