If you call this normal.... I still think my legs look squished into these shorts, but I'm sitting. How do people sit if they are overweight?
they don't.
I really do feel horrible about putting this picture. But I really was having a hard time enjoying the day with my kids because I was worried about this, and I wanted to share that with you guys. I think it's a little over the top for me to obsess like that. Also, it was HOT.... UGHI am happy that I can kind of see the lines in my chest here
I was SO BLAH for so long!! No inspiration! No drive! Last night I was in a bad mood and wanted to post about it but just didn't feel like it. Lame. I got so mad because I wanted my husband to HURRY UP and go to bed already!!!! So I could purge. I hate it when my mood and life is affected because I can't purge when I need to. I have had dreams TWICE lately about that too--that I ate and can't find a place/way to purge. I haven't been to the gym in TEN DAYS. depressing.
I know what I need to do to stop this horrible cycle, and I just haven't had the will to do it. This morning, just now, I made a healthy juice--2 huge servings worth. Carrots, cucumber, apples, lemons, kale, celery, spinach. when I was buying all that stuff on Sunday I knew I needed to juice, but I didn't WANT TO. I just wanted to be lazy and fat and eat like a hog and be a bitch. Today is Tues, and I finally got in there and did it. I couldn't think of what to do for dinner. But then I drank a little bit of my juice and got inspired and I'm gonna have fajita veggies and brown rice.
off to the gym....
UPDATE:
I did it! followed my plan perfectly. Drank my juices and starved all day. It was wonderful!! Then had my planned supper like a good girl. Now I have my AA meeting and I usually eat candy the whole time but I'm gonna be good tonight. I have a friendship bracelet to make to keep my hands busy so I don't go apeshit sitting still :-) No binging and purging all day AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH! I feel so elated. Just yesterday I couldn't NOT do it.... whew. what a relief.
xo
I'm very aware of how much space myself and others take up in a chair. Wow...that lady is huge. That is so sad. Get your juice on! Hope you get back on track.
ReplyDeletei try to be sympathetic to obese people cuz my sister is but in my head i'm just really not. it's such a fear and in my nightmares i can see myself getting so out of control. so scary!!!
ReplyDeleteAwesome job, dear! I'm here whenever you need anything.
ReplyDeleteAlso, you're purdy. : )
Your legs are so itty bitty!
ReplyDeleteAnd congrats and no binging and purging today! That's awesome!
0.0; Dear gods, did they make her pay by the person or by the seat?
ReplyDelete(Actually, I don't wanna know)
Speaking of obsession, whenever I go to Uni now all the women are walking thighgaps to me. Does she have one? How big? Will I EVER look like that? Ugh, I hate being so shallow.
SCORE for no B/P! Hmmmm, I should take my knitting to the coffee shop so I don't have the hands free to carry away cookies or cakes. Hum.
I hope you have a good day today, whatever day it is in your timezone <3
You're legs are tiny!
ReplyDeleteI get mad when people don't hurry up when I want to purge. I go from lovely to a super bitch in 2 seconds haha. Not good.
Congrats on the no B/P!