Hubby is on a business trip....
Today I ate a banana, went to the gym and worked out (running .25 mile to warm up, weights for 30 min, swimming for 10 min) was kinda light. I felt weak :-( maybe I should eat more before... then I had a half serving of muscle milk. Then I starved till dinner and we went to buffalo wild wings (that was the kids choice). I had a buncha buffalo wings, fries, nachos... Then I rushed home to purge. Then we went out and did a couple more fun things. now I'm eating crap to purge again. sooo nice. that's my life right now.
I keep crying lately. My moms death anniversary is saturday and I figured out, that's probably why the easy crying.
School starts soon. then I'll have a better routine. then soon I can think about getting off laxatives. then soon I can think about quitting purging... soon soon soon soon soon
A Tim Minchin concert quote springs to mind. . .
ReplyDeleteT.M:"I'm thinking of you in a sexy way"
M.M:"The baby just vomited in my mouth"
*Hugs*
My life seems to be about purging and laxatives mainly right now too. It's not until you right it down that you realise it's kind of bad. Ah I'll quit one day..
ReplyDelete*hugs* for Saturday. x