2 steps forward, 1/2 step back

Still, I'm moving forward overall ya?

So I did well in the days following my fast. And I don't want to be a big hypocrite, but I can't lie and this IS part of my journey SO: I purged on Sunday. Husband did a 1 day fast on Sunday. I didn't join him, so I could be a good support. One of us has to be fully functioning. I have a good friend/mentor/father figure who's in the hospital now. The doctors gave him 24 hours (to live) on Sunday morning, and as far as I know he's still with us, but there's little (no) hope of recovery. Anyway, I was at the hospital a lot this weekend and couldn't bother with worrying too much about what I ate. STILL, I ate well (very little) all day. I made this for dinner:

Salad Rolls with Lemongrass soup
Made all from scratch by ME. this meal was less than 200 cal and Before that during the day I only had juices. I was making them for hubby anyway and they're good for me....

But then I made the kids Ramen---Saporro Ichiban Ramen, and that's the best I love it. Making it for them turned on my monster. That is so easy to purge! But the reason purging doesn't work for me is this: Once I do it, I ALWAYS end up eating peanut butter on my way to bed or in the middle of the night. And I don't purge that.

Yesterday morning, I woke up and had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich because I decided to try to eat regular meals. I think "eating regular meals" is a common theme for us today huh girls? Anyway, I ate that right. Then I went to the gym and my friend met me who is thinking of joining. She's watched me get skinny and she was like "I want you to help me". She's already got a pretty good body but she's not in shape and OH if she gets in shape she's gonna look so good! So that's my project and she JOINED the gym yesterday woo hoo! I gave her a work out and she wanted to take me to lunch. What was I gonna say? I TRIED to avoid it but I really couldn't. So then! Another confession: I ate a turkey sandwich! OH Man, it was good too. haha Then for dinner I had a lean cuisine and I DIDN'T purge last night. so that was good. OH I almost forgot: yesterday, after the purge sunday night, I had little hickey spots around my eyes. Makeup DID cover it up, but OMG. that's the first time I've noticed that. Cant be good for wrinkles or puffieness and that's a motivator for me, cuz, um I'm a kid at heart but I'm 35 in real life and starting to see age around my eyes. :-(

Right now I'm having International Foods French Vanilla Cafe-a wollop of empty BS calories. It's so good :-( AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Then, I'm off to the gym. I'm gonna run and swim today.
xo